Ode to the Old Days

I love cooking. It always has a way of helping me relax after a long hard day. I work as a cook at a resort/casino which is a different experience for me. Normally I'm used to the bistro style personal restaurant where I know everyone who comes in and we all have a good time. I have the freedom to experiment new dishes and techniques, to make delicious food that I feel good making. Healthy, fresh, delicious food. Working at my current job, I've learned to work in a much faster paced kitchen, where so many people are constantly barking at me. Yesterday morning, I took muffin pans, sprayed them with Pam and then laid thinly sliced ham inside each cup to form a cup of itself. Then I cracked an egg inside each cup and let it bake. After they were done I laid them out on a pan and lightly poured a creamy mornay sauce over top after which I lightly sprinkled paprika on it. It looked beautiful! Unfortunately, however, I cook for all 3000 something employees, most of which couldn't tell you what a mornay sauce is. So many of them looked at my food in disgust and the dining room attendees come back and told me I should just scramble up some eggs instead. I believe I'm an excellent cook, but when every second of the day I'm being told that I've screwed up some how...it kind of gets to you. It makes it hard to sleep at night, I'm constantly thinking about the next day hoping I don't get yelled at for some insignificant reason. A good majority of the attendees (waitress/bussers) are women, however, as a cook, I work with men mostly. This is proving to be quite difficult. They are super patronizing, their vocabulary is narrowed down to mostly profanity. One of my co-workers purposely set me on fire the other week ago, thought it was so funny he tried to do it again...I smacked him. Then there's the guys who get super handsy... I've been finding that I'm losing my interest in cooking. I don't cook as much as I used to at home. When I'm at work I'm counting the hours till I'm off. They've kind of ruined it for me.